Trouble

The Thanksgiving Post was so lovely and fluffy wasn't it?. Ya right.

It's easy when things are going the way you want? All that "unconditional love. the end" stuff of mine. "How much wine is she drinking anyway! you may think. " Well, not enough I say! because I've been in my "monkey mind" repeatedly since then. Remember the Buddhist monkey from my post from 5-3-10. The Buddhists called it the "monkey mind" "the thoughts that swing form limb to limb, stopping only to scratch themselves, spit and howl." Well I've being swinging with the howling monkey. I thought I had made a narrow escape once. All it took was a day and a half(which I'll never get back), a run, and of course a glass or two of wine. I thought PHEW I escaped. That was going to be my post title "A Narrow Escape" But no, He (the monkey-my buddy) came back again for another ride and I hopped on. I've been on several rides in fact since then.

I thought I was getting wiser, stronger, better at this. Dealing with life and it's adversity. Well, I need to take some of my own medicine. -Oh it's a jagged little pill.-

Today I was really fighting the monkey when I got a nice little kick in the ass from a facebook comment that reminded me:

I control my response to any situation. (the space between)
Don't take things personal
Trust myself.

What a tri-fecta!

It's all pretty tough and it's too early to drink! so I'll just do what Yahweh told me to one day while running on the canal-

"Practice Robin"

Trouble
Don't you see
That in your bed
I find no sleep
I confess you came because of me
Trouble get behind me now
Trouble let me be

Cold wet stone
Deep river bed
Once so clean and clear now runs red
You know to well
Was me that called you here
Trouble get behind me now
Trouble let me be

Oh sweet day
Leave me behind
I will never call on you
Until the day I die
Pray your mercy shine on me
Pray your mercy shine

Here I stand
Head bowed for thee
My empty heart begs you
Leave me be
But I confess
You know too well
That I have fallen
Pray your mercy give to me
Pray your mercy shine
Trouble
Trouble thee
Let your mercy shine

Cold wet stone
River deep and red
Your cold heart beats inside my head
You know too well
It was me that brought you here
Ohhh trouble get behind me now
Trouble let me be
I pray your mercy shine on me
Trouble let me be


Dave Matthews Band